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"Best Friend"
Mr. . You already know who it is who is posting this. I was your once, and you were my . Remember? Well, I'm not here to say a bunch of words to pull at your heartstrings. If you ever want to come back into my life in any way, you'll do it. When I said my , I think I made it very clear that I was leaving the door open behind me. I'm just here to say, if by some wild unlikely chance you happen to read this, thanks. Thanks for showing me who I really am. What I'm capable of. Thanks for showing me my . You came into my life, and for a time, I felt like magic. I felt sure. I felt whole. When I was with you, my whole world seemed to glow. I wish we could have one last face-to-face, simply so I could hear your 100% honesty about what was really going through your head in that time - what the hell were you thinking? Was it a game? The truth? Are you living a lie now, or was I the lie? Again, the truth is all I crave. I don't even want to do anything with it. I just want to know. Because when you left, I was . I chose death, more times than I could ever count. You left me with my soul ripped apart, and my heart bleeding out. I was a shell for over a year. A ghost in hell. But then the universe brought an old friend back into my life. Funny how even though he was (and is) still recovering from his own mistakes, he was the only one who was able to bring me back to myself. Others had tried, and I pushed away their offers sweet adult ready sex encounter mature women looking for sex of encouragement like a pushes away a plate full of Brussels sprouts. But not with him - he awoke within me a passion, a hope, a happiness, a love. I found my through him, my friend and now love partner in life. If I had ended it like I wanted to even on the very night when he first said "hello" to me, I would have never had the opportunity to experience the joys of being the woman I am this very moment. I'm happy. I'm . I'm passionate. I'm whole. I'm free. I just want to thank you for every moment of you brought into my life, as well as for every moment of misery you inflicted after the day you said goodbye. I am who I am because of you. Had I never met you, I would have never been strong enough to make it this far in life - of that I am certain. Congrats on getting your degree, and for finally leaving the job that wasn't going to take you any further toward your dreams. I wonder what kind of feelings you felt the last time you walked out of those doors. I hope you continue to flourish, to create, and to capture the beauty in the world around you through your brilliant work. Your "marriage" is a lie. At least it was the last time I heard. My relationship is real, honest. He knows how I felt and feel about you, he knows the joys and the pains you brought into my life. We have trust, camaraderie, friendship, passion, and happiness. I hope it makes you happy to know that I'm happy. I don't know what to think. It's strange to be forgiving of all the things you made me feel, but I guess that just goes to show how deep love can run. I will always love you, in a way that perhaps you will never understand. Part of me hopes you'll come back into my life someday. If that is ever your desire, don't deny it, don't fight it. I'll be right here, and part of me will always need you. If nothing else, just once, say hello. Come to my place, or meet me somewhere, and give me the truth. All of it. We both know I deserve it, and I'd be lying to you if I said I didn't need it. I just want to know. I'll always be with you in . Sincerely, H.
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Free and bored
I am free and bored tonight so I am hoping to meet someone new who would like to take a single white female out and show her a good time.I am a fun and cool person to chill with and I do not disappoint. 
